Our beacon in life

Too often we sat and glorified those we admired. Some really admired David Beckham, admired his looks, admired his wife, his money, his success and admired that he managed to bed several woman and get away with it. The majority admired Rasulullah and the way he deals with adversity.(i seriuosly believe that the media needs to sell this more rather than modern icons who are not free from errors)

Some admired Mandela, some admired Dr M, others Nik Aziz, there are some admired their own parents and some even admired their wife or husband secretly. Well i guess this is normal ..after all, we all need someone to look up to.

When we were growing up, our father may be our greatest hero. Hence , the conversation like " Ko tahu, bapak aku boleh menyelam kat Sungai Pahang sampai 15 minit tau itu hari!!"

"Eleh, bapak aku tahun lepas menyelam sampai 30 minit , tak kecoh pun...."

" Bapak ko berdua tak terror, bapak aku lagi hebat...dari tahun 1983..dia menyelam sampai sekarang tak timbul-timbul lagi"

Ah, how we glorified our parents then....after we become teenagers, suudenly we realised that our dad is not that great after all...hence, arguments ensued..statement "Alah abah pun bukkanya buat macam mak suruh dulu.....".

The search of new idols began...we found solice in our friends, some in books , some in pornographics items, some in god, some never recovered at all.

I may come from a broken family, but i am fond of both my mum and dad but to be honestly, they are not my beacon in shaping the person that i am today. I have always make my decision mirroring what would some of my collegues do, hence you can say i admired my group of friends..heh..heh (the need to be accepted).

I realised this when i had a conversation with my classmates as to the most important person they felt have an impact in their lifes. many said this...some says that....i couldn't say anything.

I believe i am in a minority when i said that there are some that hardly have any icon or icons that they admired. In fact this small group are dynamic in their chosen icon...sometimes it is William Wallace (Scotland warrior), some other occassion it is Aragorn in LOTR, the reluctant king who felt he may failed as his duty, or even Michael Owen , not wanted by Raul in Real Madrid but scores every time he come on the field.

Must we follow a person or a collection of attributes from different persons? Jay, my friend, becomes a doctor because he wanted to be like his father, a doctor as well. True enough he become exactly like his father by having two wives as well. ( That is a real accomplishment!!!), Khairul is the same...a lecturer, becoz both of his parents are lecturers.

Then who are the person you admired or look for in terms of guidance? I must honestly said that i hardly have any icons in my life, i dont admired David Beckham though if he has extra money that he wanted to give me, i wouldnt mind spending it. I dont admired Annuar Zain though if he were to lend me his voice i probably win Akademi Fantasi 3 next year. I dont mind admired Nik Aziz for with his piousness i probably be a much better person that i am now.

The real question that bog me down last nite was when i asked myself..." Mesti ada icon ke? You are your own master ler......"

Iya ker??