Haven't been very professional at late.
In fact, very unprofessional at all....by far, i can say that this is the worst that i have acted in my professional career.
Ever since, i submitted my resignation letter...i havent been acting wisely. I come to work depending whether i actually like it or not. Yesterday, i come at 2.00 p.m. and today 10 p.m....the desire to be at my working place is virtually none.
Personally, this is not like me...even my last stint, i wasnt like this.Gracious to the very last...and very professional till the very end. Perhaps this is wrong.
Deep inside..i wanted this to happen actually. I will come when i wanted to come...and acted the way i act. I have given everything i can give to the very best of my ability till the day i submit my letter. During that time, i undertook three person job under my wings without much problem. I hardly complained but i know this wouldnt be enough.
True enough ...when year end arrives, i was only considered slightly above average performer. I dont mind that at all....but when i was told that i hardly do my work, i was very offended. Because during the last 4 months, i undertook my clerk works, my executive works and my own work. Matilah la cam nie....mula2 what i am paid doesnt matter....but when 3 org punya kerja kena bikin sorang, mula la kita fikir yang kita wasn't properly compensated. Mula la any worker who are initially hard-working and honest turns into a lazy and dis-honest one.
Who's at fault??
Partly my own and partly the management for their lack of effort to find a quick replacement.
May be this is all the working of an insane mind or just a 30 year old man frustration.
Ah hell, you can't please everybody .....that's why i starting on my own and get my own money..because i can no longer whore myself just to get a good appraisal at the end of the year. May be that is the real reason....and at the moment, that will good enough.
Personally, this is not like me...even my last stint, i wasnt like this.Gracious to the very last...and very professional till the very end. Perhaps this is wrong.
Deep inside..i wanted this to happen actually. I will come when i wanted to come...and acted the way i act. I have given everything i can give to the very best of my ability till the day i submit my letter. During that time, i undertook three person job under my wings without much problem. I hardly complained but i know this wouldnt be enough.
True enough ...when year end arrives, i was only considered slightly above average performer. I dont mind that at all....but when i was told that i hardly do my work, i was very offended. Because during the last 4 months, i undertook my clerk works, my executive works and my own work. Matilah la cam nie....mula2 what i am paid doesnt matter....but when 3 org punya kerja kena bikin sorang, mula la kita fikir yang kita wasn't properly compensated. Mula la any worker who are initially hard-working and honest turns into a lazy and dis-honest one.
Who's at fault??
Partly my own and partly the management for their lack of effort to find a quick replacement.
May be this is all the working of an insane mind or just a 30 year old man frustration.
Ah hell, you can't please everybody .....that's why i starting on my own and get my own money..because i can no longer whore myself just to get a good appraisal at the end of the year. May be that is the real reason....and at the moment, that will good enough.
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gee.. don't we all feel the same way??
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