WHAT WE WANTED THE MOST

In life, one cannot be too sure of what he wants or desires.

Sometimes, you just have to accept that que sera, sera …what ever will be, will be.

In many periods of our life, we encountered so many crossroads….unsure to take the left or right turn, perhaps even turn back to where it all started in the first place.

We all have been there and we all have taken the choice. No matter whatever the outcome is, we been there.

I have been wondering that no matter how well plan our life looks like, no matter how many objectives we set, numerous resolutions year after year…sometimes we ended up at the same cross roads.

Be it either to get married to somebody that we are unsure of or to take up the job offer from our dream company fearing that we might not fit in. Unclear the future is-says Yoda in Empire Strikes Back and how wise those words are!!

Personally, i believe that life itself is pandora’s box. It is what we make of it. Being a muslim, I have no qualms about qada’ and qadar but I also believe that we should set our own course of life, even when we failed that doesn’t mean that we should just give up because itu sudah takdir. Mungkin apa yg perlu kita tanamkan adalah “ Aku harus cuba dgn lebih baik lagi” or “ Gagal hari ini bukan bererti gagal selamanya”.

To be honest, I led my life on that principle alone. I may fail today but tomorrow is a different game altogether. I will do my best …no matter what! Everything in life is a contest and there is no best price for coming up second best!

However, lately I have seen incidences or scenarios that shattered my long and trusted beliefs. Reading abt a framer in South Africa who have tried to cultivate his farms but failed multiple times, no matter what method he tried.

Or, a story of a couple been married for 18 years but tried as hard as they might, they just couldn’t conceive a child. Or, a footballer named Alan Shearer who played for his favourite club, Newcastle Utd but probably will never ever land any silverware with the club.

Hmm… perhaps what we wanted the most may be not the one for us. What we felt the most suitable for us could turn into the worst nightmare. What we thought the best person to be our partner may not the one either.

Perhaps the best for us is what we have now. The best car is the same car that has been serving us during our darkest moments and trying times. The best mate is the same buddy, who eat in the same Maggie mee bowl during university days not the guy who constantly pad our back when we got our promotion.

Perhaps the best person we could ever marry is the same person who been with us during our poorer days and support us during our brighter days. Perhaps the best job for us is the one we have now if only we know how to appreciate what it have given us so far.

Then again, there is a saying the grass on the other side is always greener …you can never now.

Till that happens, I will still do the best in what I do…only after I tried a gazillion times and still failing, I know la it is time to stop trying anymore. Fate is what you make it…and god knows best, best for us and best for the people around you