AYAH PIN ….KENAPA DAN MENGAPA

Aku malas nak menulis pasal benda nie tapi pasal asyik dapat front page coverage, maka terpanggil la jugak aku menulis pasal benda nie…pada saya, bagus juga saya menyumbang komentar terhadap benda nie kerana ianya melibatkan agama dan cara hidup kita.

Rata-ratanya ramai yang sudah tahu atau dengar pasal Ayah Pin ini, sudah lama dah dia beroperasi ..persoalannya kenapa dia dibiarkan sebegitu lama?? Dulu kes2 macam ini cepat aje kena tangkap….

Alasan yang diberikan oleh Jabatan Agama adalah kerana kesulitan teknikal dan atas what charge are you going to detain him. Ini pada saya pun tidak tepat….malah menampakkan Jabatan Agama takut disaman semula kerana Ayah Pin mendapat sokongan pelbagai golongan sama ada professional mahupun drummer Def Gab C.

Jika benar pun, sila jelaskan pada saya bagaimana kerajaan kita boleh menahan Azmin Ali, Lim Kit Siang, Mat Sabu, Fernandez, Ustaz Ashaari Muhammad dan pelbagai lagi menggunakan ISA. Kenapa boleh, adakah mereka ini ditangkap kerana menentang kerajaan atau masalah akidah? Sepanjang pengalaman saya, kamu boleh ditangkap menggunakan ISA tanpa sebarang tuduhan mahupun perbicaraan??

Kenapa ISA tidak dapat digunakan bagi menangkap ayah pin?? Double standard la kan…atau sememangnya sukar. Don’t get me wrong, for me the freedom to embrace any religion is your right but by virtue of what is religion, we usually think of Islam, Christianity, Judaism, Buddha & Hindu etc…..nie totally new belief that he concocted by combining all other religion, i.e. cult. Mind you, sejarah cult nie tak pernah berakhir dgn baik…malah ada yang berakhir dgn kematian beratus-ratus ahlinya.(Doomsday Cult).

Yang aku heran macamana ada org mengikut dan sama2 berjuang mempertahankan kepercayaan mereka ini….kalau seorg dua org boleh la aku kata pukau tapi kalau dah dekat ribu pengikut …lagi la heran! Drummer Def Gab C berubat dgn Ayah Pin sanggup berikan isteri dia utk ayah pin …diceraikan serta merta dan dijadikan isteri Ayah Pin.

For me this deserve a study on its own…why is it some people have this sort of charisma that can lull somebody else senses and abandon whatever your life belief and follows theirs?!!

Ayah Pin is one of many, imagine other leaders like Adolf Hitler who not only convinced a nation to belief that their race is superior but also to eliminate another race (Jews). Mussolini is another example, an extremist in any aspect of his life…considered too dumb in school yet with his fascist party, he single handedly removed the Italian prime minister and establish a new government in his image….Sukarno also another good example, manage to convince Indonesian to fight off the dutch influence and attack Malaysia after our inception. Mao Tse Tung also another excellent example….with its cultural revolution and peasant empowerment.

To me, the ability of one man to change the course of history is remarkable. Mind you, Hitler write his best-seller “Mein-Kempt” on his own…in his own solitude..in prison. Kenapa dengan dengar ceramah dia org sahaja…ada antara kita yang boleh menangis, menyanyi dengan semangat dan pick up a weapon and bash another person skull all in the name of thy fuhrer!

Yes ..it is remarkable and amazing but it is also dangerous. If today, ayah pin propagate harmony and unity but when push come to shove (100 over mobs torched his commune lately)…he will not be reluctant to lashed out and ordered counter offensive. You never know because a man like him can easily influence his followers that this is their jihad as well!

That’s for me is more dangerous than one man like Mat Sabu, who simply asked the government to be more transparent to be jailed under ISA for 6 long years ….

Now that irony, eh??

THE LURE OF MONEY

I submitted a new proposal to our main client the other day. This project will be the biggest undertaking for us, which need to end before Raya and Raya will be the biggest Raya of all.

Insya-Allah, all I wanted to was to make to a living …if along the way, I make extra money..alhamdulilah. To many of us especially Bumiputra get easy money and lost their way because at one time, money was too easy to come buy. Yelah sapa tak mahu duit tapi banyak sangat duit pun mengundang masalah pasal partner pun boleh jadik gaduh pasal dah kelabu mata nampak duit.

Entah, kita pun tak tahu apa depan mata kita tapi kita berusaha sehingga kita mampu. Itu sahaja, yang lain kita tawakal pada Allah SWT pasal rezeki datang dari dia.

Dalam kesibukan mengejar projek agar cepat abis, tubuh aku finally gave away. The exhaustion finally get to me…I have been working practically for 26 days without any time of breaks or weekends. Saturday & Sunday pun pulun….mungkin tu sebab aku jadik letih sesangat. Maka aku tadi terlelap kat ofis selama 3 jam tanpa sedar …letih la sangat!

Hmm..sekiranya dalam kesibukan ini, aku mengabaikan tanggungjawab aku sebagai ketua keluarga, maka bukan aku sengaja…atau melayan kerenah rakan-rakan, bukan apa….bukan aku suka pun tapi aku sememangnya certified workaholics!!

Selagi kerja atau project belum settle…kepala aku sentiasa semak. Jika aku ada free sikit esok, aku spend time laa…malah aku memang bercita-cita nak berehat selama seminggu tanpa bunyi handphone!!

Persoalannya…boleh ker??

IT’S HAS BEEN BUSY

I wanted to add something to my blog for the longest time…somehow I never get around to it or whenever free time I had, my energy has long abandoned me.

However, today is kinna a slow day…which allows me to write what been going on. Well, my life is no more interesting than yours but I am kinna a “flesher” of a writer….i.e. telling a story about nothing, now that’s an art on itself, you know.

Been spending time on the project site and the people assigned to oversee it. Most of the conversation revolves around the suspension of Tan Sri Isa Samad and Osu Sukam.

I know everybody has in their own right to comment and deliberated on this issue because Malaysia is a free country i.e foreigners can come in and buy whatever property we might have, take our woman and sell it back to Malaysian at a higher price!

A lot of people who are staunch UMNO supporters generally supported the move because it reflect the hardline measure the Discipline Committee in UMNO willing to take to stem out money politics. These people agreed that while money politics in rampant in UMNO, Isa Samad is too obvious or too much for some other people liking. I don’t wanna add anymore because these people that I talked to are high brass people in UMNO hierarchy. Who am I to dabble in politics, huh??

But NO!!

I just had to asked….i throw one question to them “ Kalau betul pun dia guna duit, duit sapa dia pakai hah?? Takkan gaji Menteri Besar and Menteri Wilayah boleh spend millions of ringgit buying votes?? Duit nie tax-payers punya money la kan…??”

Man, when will I stop asking stupid question to a very obvious situation. Funny though…because they couldn’t garnered any real answer to a simple question.

The best reply was “Ala kau nie, semuanya berbau anti-kerajaan…apa yang kau tanya soalan yang bodoh nie”

“Yelah, kalau bodoh pun…apa jawapannya …? Katakan gaji Menteri Besar plus allowances mungkin jejak RM12K, 10 tahun jadik MB baru…RM 1,440,000.00 tapi korang kata dia spends berpuluh juta…mana dia dapat?”

“Err…err…err..”

I added that “ Bukan aku sokong pembangkang, tapi aku bertanya sebagai pembayar cukai selama 10 tahun….mungkin tak sebanyak juta aku bayar tapi aku rasa aku bayar cukai ada dekat ratus ribu…bukan setakat cukai pendapatan, sales tax makan kat Mcdonald 5%, Pizza Hut 5%, Carrefour 5%, macam2 laa….semua bercukai, don’t tell me I am paying for all these crap”

“ Kalau pembangkang jadik new government pun, aku akan tanya juga pasal aku masih pembayar cukai…sapa2 pun, aku tetap akan tanya?”

Nie mentality yang sebenarnya tak ada pada majority rakyat bumi yang fana ini bernama Malaysia, tanggungjawab sebagai pembayar cukai. You pay but you never asked what is being spend…

They rebuffed my statement dgn statement “ Kau nie sentiment sangat, takkan benda detail cam nie ko nak tanya…dia ada la fund dia sendiri”

So, aku tak sabar tak tanya “ O.K la kalau Isa Sama ada fund sendiri….abis, Osu Sukam boleh belanja 1.5 Pound Sterling main judi kat London, mesti dia banyak fund yek?”

“Setahu aku, judi merupakan dosa besar sebagai org Islam…kenapa Lembaga Disiplin tak ambil tindakan?’

I added “ you know what, with all of this revelation the most job in Malaysia should be a Minister..because you can actually earn millions”

Our IPTA & IPTS should offer a course “ Ministerial Science” because it pays more than most of the CEOs in Malaysia.

Hmm…the discussion ended with a lot of blank space on their faces and a bewildered face on me because they cannot answer my initial question. Buat ponek aje jadik perwakilan atau ketua Bahagian.

Alahai…Malaysiaku!

JARUM DAN CONDOM

La nie mana aku pie melepak dgn geng2 aku yg kerja sendiri gak, rata-ratanya mengeluh yang project tak ada…kalau ada mesti berebut macam org gila.

Nie lebih ketara project supply atau trading base, ada yang mengadu yg dia masuk sebutharga supply 12 bijik notebook kat satu agensi kerajaan tapi yg masuk sampai 53 company, punya la frust dia.

Competition memang fierce pasal everybody wants to make money, The recent fuel price hike, other goods pun follows suit. Most of the material has increased in price …be it 10 cents or any amount but the effect is there.

So when one so-called “enlightened” minister, claimed that only fuel price increase only gonna effected those who are capital intensive. May be he forgot that even if the industry is human intensive, people travel via cars or motorcycle which requires fuel to run. The last time I checked, cars and motorcycle stills run on fuel…so enuff said, the minister is an idiot!

There has been 3 price hike in a matter of 2 years…in a matter of litres, may be you wouldn’t be effected as much but multiples litres, the effect also come in multiple. I feel sorry for my partner who had to travel quite far to her place of work…that’s I am working harder so that she would not be carrying much of a burden anymore….heh..heh ( I like to tell that in order to please myself…keh..keh)

Tapi hakikatnya sama, duit is getting scarce but the cost of living has been steadily increasing. So cam no?

Memandangkan kerajaan amat berhasrat utk mensupply jarum dan kondom kepada penagih, aku sarankan pada kawan2 aku tadi supaya buka kilang jarum atau kondom. Depa semua pandang aku …sikit lagi kategori nak kena terajang dgn dia org pasal bagi idea bodoh.

Tapi aku teruskan lagi …aku kata nie prevention better than cure, so we must support this. Depa semua marah…kata apa kejadanya nie?!! (Wan Kamaruddin of “Edisi Siasat” fame will be proud of this word that has become famous since…)

Dia org kata kalau mahu prevent org isap dadah, bagi education at school that drugs is dangerous. Depa kat US, the government spend billions on the danger of drugs at schools and university. That should be a better alternative rather than giving needles or condoms. Depa kata kalau di drug addict dah high on cocaine, bila la pulak nak sarung kondom?? Mind you, putting that thing on is quite a challenge on its own…heh..heh.

Baik educate school children, kata depa. Dari bagi jarum and condom, yang mungkin depa jual balik…baik letak drug addict nie kat satu pulau dan bagi medical attention kat sana. Lagipun, depa kata sakit nie depa yg carik sendiri…so tanggung sendiri,

Aku tanya kalau yg kena anak dan bini mereka, salah dia org gak ker??

Semua diam.

Hebat gak aku yek??

So apa pendapat korang?

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG

It has been quite some time since I last blog.

Bukan tak mahu tapi masa tak berapa nak mengizinkan.

So much has happen, I practically do not know where to begin.

The last couple of weeks has been quite hectic to say the least…tapi sebagai org yang bekerja sendiri, lebih baik tiada masa utk melepak daripada asyik melepak kerana itu menandakan awak tiada kerja…awak tak ada kerja, maka tiada gaji…hey, itu yg aku takut.

I have managed to secure a big job with our biggest clients, alhamdulillah…that project will eat up my weekend until August. In the meantime, I am finalizing another big proposal that will hopefully keep me occupied until raya.

Malas nak fikir lagi jauh takut tak terbuat…bukan tak mahu, hendak tu hendak tapi takut tak terlayan ..maka tak berjalan lak. Mungkin itu bezanya businessman Cina dgn Melayu, aku ada sedikit takut utk undertake multiple job in the hundred thousand while they probably take it in their stride.

Dalam masa tu, ada la sekor kutu kat tempat client kita org…kerja admin tapi tak la besar pangkat mana pun….tapi gayanya mengalahkan senior manager. Boss dia namanya A, besar la pangkatnya tapi tak ler eksen mana.

Aku biasa deal dgn A aje pasal dia decision maker tapi mamat sekor nie, S, sibuk ler…buat2 dia tahu..mencelah sana sini. Aku kira baru, so aku diam ajelah. Partner aku advise aku supaya jangan layan dia sangat…so I take heed the advice ler.

So masa kami dapat LOA big project tuh, dia call our officemate, Mr H, mintak duit kopi. Kalu sikit tak pe…mintak RM5,000.00 la pulak. Dia mengadu masalah kesihatan dia la apa laa…kata nanti the RM5K nanti tolak komisen dia dgn Mr A la..

Personally, aku tak ada masalah bagi duit dgn dia kalau dia betul2 susah tapi cara dia tak kena. Aku tahu lifestyle dia mewah…dia setakat executive biasa aje, gaji dia RM1,600.00 tapi dia pakai Perdana V6, jam tangan Tag Hauer RM5k, baju Valantino dan pakai talipon 3G. Umur dah jejak 36 tetapi masih menyewa…

Dulu sebelum aku masuk, partner aku ada bagi dia sikit duit sebagai tanda terima kasih tolong kami dapat project besar. Dia amik ¾ dari jumlah tu dan bagi A sikit . Dia kabo kat A yang itu aje yg dia dapat…padahal dia dah kebas dekat RM18K. Mana tak panas A dgn dia bila dia dapat tahu.

Aku tahu dia kuat berpolitik dgn platformnya UMNO dan sibuk dgn launching Putera UMNO. Dia selalu lepak Lotus sampai pagi…agar GRO mana2 yang tak dapat teksi…dia boleh tolong hantarkan balik. Pendek kata….duit nie macam air la pasal berlagak kaya tapi sebenarnya papa.

Aku sebenarnya marah tapi pasal partner aku dah sikit berumur, so aku cepat cool laa….kalau ikut nafsu mahu aje aku tempeling kepala dia. Bukan apa, kawan2 aku umur ratanya belum jejak 30 tapi boleh simpan duit beli rumah, settlekan kereta, kahwin. Nie pada aku menunjukkan kawan aku lagi matang dari setan sekor nie..

Nego la jugak bila bersemuka..tapi lebih sibuk ceritakan susah dia daripada nak faham susah aku, aku nak bertekak pun tak guna ..so mahu tak mahu bagi la jugak. Tapi aku tak bagi sebanyak yg dia mintak ler…aku bagi separuh aje. Ikut nafsu aku, aku mampus tak bagi pasal aku tahu dia bukan buat apa pun…dia tumpang nama aje pasal yang buat paper dan proposal, boss dia A yang buat dari awal sampai abis.

Bila aku tanya lebih sikit mampus dia tak boleh jawab tapi kelentong dia, masya-allah punya la pusing sampai Alor Star baru dapat cover satu point.

Aku terima hakikat yg org macam nie mesti ada punya, tapi aku tak sangka la sampai macam tu gayanya. Buat masa nie aku buy time dulu laa….esok nanti si malaun tuh mintak lagi, siap la nanti…

After all, it is the time when the Sith has its revenge!!!

Muahahhahahahhaha

THE DAY THAT NEVER WAS….

Early in the morning, I received multiple SMS-es congratulating me on my day of inception to this world. Yup…I am hitting the big 3-0! So most question asked me …how do I feel about hitting the initial 3? I appreciate all the gesture but ....

Well…to be honest with you, I don’t feel anything. Personally, I am not that big on birthdays especially mine, not that big on New Year celebration either. I am not that kind of a person who drawn up a long list of resolutions of what I ought to be in the end of the year. I am also not the person that needs to be governed by a certain numbers that much…except the numbers on the purchase orders I received or the numbers on my paycheck ler…that I really care!

Don’t get me wrong…it is not that I am a kill joy or anything…there are moments that I felt that I have come of age…like when I get circumsize heh..heh. Or the first wet dream, or first kiss, the first second base…the first wife (erm..ermm), the first child, the first car, the first house…but it is more of a long series of accomplishment rather than a milestone that I set to achieve at a certain age.

Some of the friends I had since my school and univ. days told me that I hardly change…still the one who plays pranks, crack senseless jokes and a kid at heart. Nie buskin masuk bakul angkat sendiri but an honest response by old acquaintances. Age is a number, for me, and that’s about it. It should not be a barrier or a threshold to do whatever…

I remember reading an article by Rina Omar on Sunday mail about hitting the big 3, (yes…she is the current host of quickie on 8TV)…about lifestyle that change with age, when you start reading Cosmopolitan rather than Remaja, you started taking vitamins supplement, sleep earlier because the body is no longer have the same metabolism rate and jest of life.

May be it’s true but I don’t see myself suddenly stop listening to music sang by Justin Timberlake, Anuar Zain, Robbie Williams in favour of Pavarotti, Symphony No.5 or Engelbert Humperdink. Or I stopped playing futsal, enjoying my lepak time with my buddies… (who are younger than me).

A day is still day no matter what pans out to be. Personally, I believe an average day that is mired with works and meetings can be the most exciting day in your life or a day out in Gunung Tahan planned for months turned out to be a dud because the rain couldn’t stop pouring. Who knows what lies out there….everyday can be exciting, perhaps we can be bold and brave enough to try something new…perhaps everyday will be a new day.

Well, at the moment I need to see my doctor…my back is hurting me! May be a sign of old age…..

Nah!!

Heh..heh..heh…

A life in a day of a small time and sometime small minded businessman….

Today I presented a drawing that will make the company bigger, undoubtedly….May Allah shows me the way ahead and ease the passage through….

I believe we had done what best effort we can mustered through this aging frame, the will stays strong and self belief undeterred. It left me wondering though about those who has had tried their hand on business…many were burned, many were left broken and many has become financially independent.

I had seen quite a few of my partner colleagues, who were left almost penniless after their business failed. Once were a driver of Toyota Prado and Mercedez “Avantgarde”… now forced to drive a kancil for he has lost everything. Another was a successful business for years in a real estate industry, fully paid his house before his 35^th Birthday…were driving BMW and holidaying in Spain in 1996…all were wash away in the wake of financial crisis of 1997-98. Now, he drives a taxi to supplement his wife income….lucky his house is fully paid la kan…

Of course, there were also many examples of those who are successful …make millions but I am not interested in them but those that I know are usually able to do so because of their “political” connection. Only genuine people who have to go through tick and thin, self reliance…and sheer determination….be a better person out of this sort of experiences. Believe me! you cannot learn this in Harvard, The Apprentice, AF or Nona. I applauded them for not only they wade the water with all their might…the families becomes closer as well. The wife joins the working population again, the children started to save and becomes good students because they know educations will provide them with better prospect.

Only god knows where this road gonna lead me on….but I will try my very best ..should I fail, perhaps there is a lesson I learn from that too…and should I succeed ..may I be a philanthropist and an evil sith lord!

Working on your own has its own benefits and disadvantages too…but I have no complaint because I choose to be here. Who knows what is right or wrong huh? We all try our best in anything…be it in our work and relationships.

Till then…may you find your peace!

The tale of two brothers,,,

Once, there was a family known as Malaysia. In 1985, they were blessed with their first born, Proton.
The family loved Proton all they can. They gave Proton everything. They protected Proton from the bigger
boys in Kindergarden. They told Proton, "You're young, you need protection from them. It's okay to
make mistakes, you're young. Even if you don't learn from mistakes...it's okay...you are young."

Proton became spoilt. He always depended on parents and used up all his allowance on useless things.
When he had to do his chores, he paid people to do it and the work is lousy, causing the parents having
to call repairmen to fix all the mess that he made.

Anyway, when Proton was 10 (but he still acted like he is 1 or 2 years old), he had a younger brother,
Perodua. At first, everyone thought this younger brother will be like Proton. Anyway, this new baby was more
handsome and looks smarter than Proton. Malaysia knew there is a possibilty Perodua could be smarter
than Proton. Since they love Proton so much, they decided that Perodua can only learn a few things. Cannot
learn the same thing as Proton. This is so that Perodua wouldn't beat Proton at what Proton is doing.

Although Perodua was also protected by Malaysia, he learn to be independent very fast. He made good
friends with Daihatsu, who had an elder brother Toyota. The two of them helped Perodua in everything.
Perodua, being independent and smart, learnt a lot and in a short while, was becoming as good as, if not better, than Proton.

Malaysia realized that Perodua was becoming better than his brother.Although proud of Perodua, they still love Proton best.
They paid Lotus (which is older and well known worldwide) to be friends with Proton.
Using this advantage, Proton mentioned Lotus everytime he wanted to tell people about himself. On this own,
he was still the same.

Moreover, Proton is always not updated. When doing his work, he still uses the typewriter and refuses to use the computer.
Perodua, so much younger, used the computer, with broadband for his work. Perodua was improving so much that
Toyota has assigned him with his work, codename Avanza 2005.

Proton is 20 years old, Perodua only 10. It was obvious that Perodua was the more successful of the two siblings.
What is worse,Proton said he still need his parents to help him for another 10 years. He still need to protection from the big boys.
In May 2005, Perodua was about the show Malaysia his best work so far...codename Myvi. Proton, being jealous...quickly
came up with an unprofessional remark about Perodua's work and show his work at the same time as Perodua on purpose.

The future of Malaysia and her two kids are still unknown. But it would be obvious that Perodua will shine, leaving Proton crying.
It would be a wonder if in 2015, Proton will ask Malaysia for another 10 years of help and protection...maybe this time...
protection from Perodua as well........

It has been some time...

It has been quite a while since i last blog.

The need to do it has lessen over the days....may be i have longer days at my office and lesser things to say.

I am not complaining for i have been more persistent in my life, i have a new of objective and determined to achieve it.May Allah guide me and show me the right path....i am a weak, a very weak servant but i do try to be a good disciple as much as i can.

Time has been moving very fast, one day you were in your office starting your week and suddenly you are enjoying your weekend already. Time does ..really wait for no man. You just have to make do what you have and fulfilled whatever tasks given.

I have been to a lot of places lately and there i have seen poverty still have a strong grip on most people in the rural areas. In an instance, i wondered whether those kids borned in this environment has a shot of being a fully independent individuals.

Will he get a proper education? Will his parents even afford the school fees? The extra tuition ...the extra set of books?

I was lucky..in fact, i considered myself extremely lucky for i was borned into a middle income family. I was somehow given the right tools and avenue towards a proper education.

But nowadays, some kids predominantly Malay drops out of school because their parents can no longer afford their school fees. Gone are the days where the school took extra compassion and lend an aid...people need to fend off themselves. You either have it or leave it.

This somehow left me feel emptied and hollowed. Where is Baitulmal...in aiding this sort of people? Where is Yayasan Kemiskinan? Mana dia Yang Berhormat? Mana dia pemuda Hijau? Mana dia puteri Pink??

Bila Harizal sudah ditangkap akibat tidak pergi PKN, semua heboh dan membahaskan kemunasabahan tindakan ini. For god sake, his family was poor!! He drop out of school when he was 14 yrs old! That should be a beacon to his penghulu or Y.B already?! But no.....let leave him to rot! Only when the papers highlighted his case...sympathy were shown...but believe me, the damage was done long before the aid came....the remorse will always be there!!

Apa nak jadik dgn society kita hari nie? Bila kita sentiasa dimomokkan dgn hiburan demi hiburan sehingga kita alpa dgn kesusahan org lain. Apa kemiskinan harus kita "batik"kan juga baru kita beri perhatian? Apa Harizal harus di "batik"kan juga baru dia tak perlu bayar denda PKN?

Maaf jika saya berbunyi cynical tapi saya pembayar cukai yg tidak tahu kemana perginya duit cukai saya? Bukankah bagus jika duit cukai saya tahun lepas yg beribu2 ringgit itu dibayar kepada keluarga miskin yang hanya mahukan anaknya ke sekolah seperti org lain? Jika mereka tak dapat, ke mana perginya duit ini?

EPF sahaja mempunyai lebih RM16 billion simpanan...sebulan FD sahaja sudah cukup membiayai beberapa kampung ke sekolah selama setahun!

Entah....kita tak perihatin....kita semua lebih suka menceritakan perihal Mawi yang dapat masuk semula AF3 agaknya!!??

I need therapy!!

I am a sore loser!

Yes..i admit...i don't like to lose....

Losing sucks especially when i knew it wasn't entirely my fault.

I played sports every now and then....

In fact, most of my schooling days are usually spent on sports..tried everything...there are some games i just totally sucks at....ping-pong, basketball...snooker and pool.

I reckoned i am quite good at badminton, football and hand-ball....a little bit of hockey.

I dont know why but i believe i am a bit too competitive even if it just a friendly game..

However, i understand why being a Sith is more tempting than being a Jedi because you can fight with passion and hate! i cannot remember a single game i had that i can win when i am totally casual and laughing. Some people..perhaps most people can enjoy a friendly game and having a laught at it later...but unfortunately not me, i guess.

I remember i played a game of badminton, i was laughing and giggling...i lost 15-1 in both sets. i asked for a rematch next week...and i am totally focused, chanelled my hatred and walla! i won comrehensively....i smashed better and harder, one i recalled totally straight at his forehead!

In football, i played to win and i will do some crunchy tackles..that will make even Paolo Maldini shirked!! I will shout and played until my body gave away...winning is somehow very important to me.

I need theraphy,i know.... but this attitude is somehow good for me as well...throughout my adult life, i have carry this attitude in my work and it has brings me to some heights that i was personally happy for because it was way too early for some guys my age to achieve.

But i know i can't carry on like this forever...there will be moments when my body gave away and i will no longer able to push myself harder, faster and bolder like i used to. It may even lead to despression when you can no nonger do the things you used to...after all, vanity is one of the sins?

May be or perhaps. Err...org lain ada masalah nie ker?? Mesti menyampah tgk org cam aku....yang nak menang aje. Aku pun tak suka ..tapi entah?! Tapi aku bukan la kalau aku kalah akan maki hamun opponent aku, i will shake his hands because he is a better athlete than me. I tried my best so...he is better ler! Cuma masa main tuh aku tak la gelak2 ke apa, kena concentrate giler....la kan...heh..heh

Why I blog and why do you blog?

I have been wondering on this question for quite some time now..especially when time is not as structured like before. Structure meaning previously I go to the work at 8.00 am….till 6pm….went home, watch some tv…and play with the kids.

Nowadays, it is more like I go to work at 11 am, prepare some paperwork, invoices, proposal…see dozens of people…perhaps till 10pm…or most of the time 3am. Finally, I have fall into the nocturnal creatures category after all. So kalau ada masa terluang, memang tidur or lepak main game.

Anyway, back to the original situation….why do I blog? Initially, I wanted to voiced out against the tyranny and manipulations that happened in every day office. Working in a structured organization, small or big…having a functional orgn.chart bounds to create dissatisfaction. What I experienced and gone through ….i thought will be good for young graduates and those who are strange to the word “office politics” or “ Kaki Bodek”.

While it is easy to say or even deny that this sort of things are neglible, the fact remains that situation where even your closest friends can turned into your worst enemy because of promotion or desire to be loved by the boss…is unfortunately real.

This is same in any organization, while many will easily say…”I do not get involve into office politics” …it is easy to fall prey to it and those who have a rebellious spirit like me, are often strangled by your ethical and principal beliefs.

Now, I am no longer working for some old git, who probably wouldn’t know what and where he/she is taking the department ….i am working on my own, I chart my own schedules and I decide daily what I wanted to do the day after next.

I enjoyed what I do , don’t get me wrong….but I am no longer angry or pissed off with some old prick who refuse to listen to another young man idea simply because he was there when Krakatoa blew up or when Japan invade Malaya. I used to….but not anymore.

I beginning to wonder why do I blog? Am I just one of them who wanted to feel that I am hip and trendy or just happy writing about my not so happening life?

Or is it I am one of those sexually confused person who write about acting like a whore because I felt my choice of sexual orientation will marginalized me?

Or may be….i am in a closet?! Yeah right?!! I have a lot of male friend who are good looking and sexy like if I am gay, I would date them but i don’t think so…I extremely like what woman comes equipped with… Or I write because I simply like to write?

It has been quite some time….and I haven’t been able to find the answer yet….perhaps the answer I get is a positive ones because being me, the moment I felt it no longer worthwhile ….i would not do it i.e. stop blogging.

Till I found the answer….i guess I keep the status quo.

CREDIT CARD SCAM!!!!!

CREDIT CARDS SCENE 1

A friend went to the local gym and placed his belongings in the locker. After the workout and a shower, he came out, saw the locker open, and thought to himself "Funny, I thought I locked the locker. Hmmmmm." He dressed and just flipped the wallet to make sure all was in order.

Everything looked okay - all cards were in place. A few weeks later his credit card bill came - a whooping bill of $14,000! He called the credit card company and started yelling at them, saying that he did not make the transactions. Customer care personnel verified that there was no mistake in the system and asked if his card had been stolen.

"No" he said, but then took out his wallet, pulled out the credit card, and yep - you guessed it - a switch had been made. An expired similar credit card from the same bank was in the wallet. The thief broke into his locker at the gym and switched cards.

Verdict: The credit card issuer said since he did not report the card missing earlier, he would have to pay the amount owed to them. How much did he have to pay for items he did not buy? $9,000! Why were there no calls made to verify the amount swiped? Small amounts rarely trigger a "warning bell" with some credit card companies. It just so happens that all the small amounts added up to big one!

SCENE 2

A man at a local restaurant paid for his meal with his credit card.

The bill for the meal came, he signed it, and the waitress folded the receipt and passed the credit card along. Usually, he would just take it and place it in his wallet or pocket. Funny enough, though, he actually took a look at the card and, lo and behold, it was the expired card of another person.

He called the waitress and she looked perplexed. She took it back, apologized, and hurried back to the counter under the watchful eye of the man. All the waitress did while walking to the counter was wave the wrong expired card to the counter cashier, and the counter cashier immediately looked down and took out the real card. No exchange of words ---nothing! She took it and came back to the man with an apology.

Verdict: Make sure the credit cards in your wallet are yours. Check the name on the card every time you sign for something and/or the card is taken away for even a short period of time. Many people just take back the credit card without even looking at it, thinking that it has to be theirs.

FOR YOUR OWN SAKE, DEVELOP THE HABIT OF CHECKING YOUR CREDIT CARD EACH TIME IT IS RETURNED TO YOU AFTER A TRANSACTION!

SCENE 3

Yesterday I went into a pizza restaurant to pick up an order that I had called in. I paid by using my Visa Check Card which, of course, is linked directly to my checking account. The young man behind the counter took my card, swiped it, then laid it flat on the counter as he waited for theapproval, which is pretty standard procedure.

While he waited, he picked up his cell phone and started dialing. I noticed the phone because it is the same model I have, but nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Then I heard a click that sounded like my phone sounds when I take a picture. He then gave me back my card but kept the phone in his hand as if he was still pressing buttons.

Meanwhile, I'm thinking: I wonder what he is taking a picture of, oblivious to what was really going on. It then dawned on me: the only thing there was my credit card, so now I'm paying close attention to what he is
doing.

He set his phone on the counter, leaving it open. About five seconds later, I heard the chime that tells you that the picture has been saved. Now I'm standing there struggling with the fact that this boy just took a picture of my credit card. Yes, he played it off well, because had we not had the same kind of phone, I probably would never have known what happened.

Needless to say, I immediately canceled that card as I was walking out of the pizza parlor. All I am saying is, be aware of your surroundings at all times. Whenever you are using your credit cards, take caution and don't be careless. Notice who is standing near you and what they are doing when you use your card. Be aware of phones because many have a camera phone these days.

When you are in a restaurant and the waiter/waitress brings your card and receipt for you to sign, make sure you scratch the number off. Some restaurants are using only the last four digits, but a lot of them are still putting the whole thing on there. I have already been a victim of credit card fraud and, believe me, it is not fun. The truth is that they can get you even when you are careful, but don't make it easy for them.

FORWARD THIS TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU CAN THINK OF.

LET'S GET THE WORD OUT!

How can they....?

Sorry ...i havent been updating the blog for quite some time, hectic is probably the reason here but time need to be managed rather than dictated upon, hence no excuses...i am lazy!

Anyway, a lot has been happening..i am tired but somehow recuperated and slightly more determined.

I will explained later but in the meantime, you guys stay cool and be good!

We care..but for how long

I always wonder how long can we be thoughful of another.

Cared for another person....especially in Malaysia when it is often hot when it is needed but cold when action need to be taken.

In Malaysia, now we have Jurnal Suara Hati....a noble mission to support suffering victims of leukemia, kidneys failure and what not. I applauded the noble effort...perhaps the first of it kinds in Malaysia.

Rather than bombarded the public with another artist wannabe show, this show is like a fresh air...a dedicated team of students who tried their very best to aid these victims....., i honestly tired of this Idol and Academy thingy...while it is good for the music industry as a whole ..it doesnt make it more competitive and better. It only needed a group called Peterpan, a indonesian band, to wipe the competition cleans. I bet Zahid from Akademi Fantasia can say "Whooaa..."now loudly. Hardly gave a fight huh when our National Day Parade is even launch by a foreign band. We must have a wise minister somewhere....now, let's see!! heh..heh

Entahlah mungkin kita betul2 kisah paqda mereka2 yang malang ini tanpa sejauh mana keperihatinan ini akan di teruskan? Ingatkah kamu pada insiden buang anak? Bohsia?

Benda ini masih berlaku berleluasa tanpa kurang mendapat liputan kerana masyarakat sudah jemu dan lali dgn isu ini...adalah kes ini telah ditangani dengan baik oleh pihak kerajaan mahupun badan sukarelawan? Macamana nak tangani isu ini jika ada pemimpin kita sibuk dgn KL Fashion Show yang hanya utk glamour dan menguntungkan sesetengah pihak?!

Minyak juga telah naik 3 kali sepanjang pemerintahan perdana menteri baru? Saya faham...well perhaps more than understand the need to reduce the fuel subsidies but then again, Malaysia still is a net exporter of oil.( We exports more than importing oil). This is still a case....crude oil naik maknanya Petronas pun makes some money...so we supposed to even out what?!

Simple supply and demand!

But just like the suffering victims of leukemia, abused wives or abused husband, abandoned child, we may all forgot about all these but we felt that we have heard enough and nothing can be done about it. We, the consumer are taken for a rite and may not know it!

We cared about an issue...but for how long...

How long does it takes to forget about some child who lost his life after fighting a liver failure in Singapore? See...i bet you dont even know the child name know because to be honest, i dont either...

Isnt it shocking?! I am....

My feet oh my foot?!

It has been exhausting and exhalirating at the same time.

I havent been able to soaked it at all.

As i am working on my own now, the working hours can range from 9.30 am to 12 pm or 10.30 am to 4.30 am.

I am there in Klang, KL, Klang Lama the next...Cheras later, Pandan late nite.

Am i enjoying it?

Yes...i get to meet some really interesting people, somehow they are happier with the choices they make, make enough money to be debt free...just needed the drive and determination.

Honestly, being accomodating and cheerful can go a long way in business...smile the right way, laugh at the right moment..can easily bag you projects.

Yesterday, we closed two deals...we are closing another two deals that gonna make our company enough working capital for another year. Hell it is better to worry about getting financing for projects in hand rather than financing the business because there is no business!

It is tough though.....you need to be in the right industry, have a good networks of supplier and good team to work with. But life is full of suprises.....today you may be making tonnes of money, tomorrow you be losing millions.

It is all about balance, it is all about ying-yang.

There are many challenges ahead, am i gonna take it all in my stride.....hopefully, it is a journey i can last and tell the tale to others that it is a journey worth taking.

May Allah grant me the safe passage thru...and lighten the burden for i am afraid that it is a burden to heavy carry and i crack half way.

Hmm my legs are tired and need some shut eye...at 9pm today, need to meet some suppliers..

Till then,,,,,

A night to remember?!! Liverpool!Liverpool!

King Luis is flying high?!!

Steve Finnan, Jamie Carragher, Sami Hyypia, Djimi Traore - a Champions League-winning defence? A year ago you would have messed your pants laughing, at 10pm on Tuesday night after one of the best defensive performances you are ever likely to witness, it seems like the least they deserve.

In a word, against Chelsea they were immense. And not just that back four but Steven Gerrard, Igor Biscan, Dietmar Hamann, Luis Garcia, John-Arne Riise, bloody hell even Antonio Nunez and Harry Kewell when they came on, gave every last breath to keep out the Premiership champions.

Every player got every part of his body he could possibly manage between the ball and the goal for every one of the 96 minutes. I have no idea what the phrase 'no quarter given' actually means, but at Anfield there seemed to be not the slightest fraction on offer.

I'll leave the arguments about the 'goal' and the inevitable calls for goal-line technology to someone else. It was given, that is all, and my admiration is not for the way Liverpool gained the lead, but how they held it.

Jose Mourinho says the best team lost, and maybe they did in the greater scheme of things, but the Chelsea manager was wrong not to acknowledge that the team that won this particular game deserved to win this particular game on the grounds of hunger, of determination and of sheer bloody-mindedness.

This was a Liverpool performance reminiscent of the England's last win over Argentina in the World Cup - nothing pretty, nothing imaginative, just the sheer brilliance of footballers doing half the job of a footballer, that is keeping the opposition from scoring.

And at the heart of it all was Carragher, who produced one of the finest performances from a defender we have witnessed in some years. How many vital blocks? How many immaculately-timed tackles? How many towering headers? He may not be skilful, he may get a nosebleed when he crosses the half-way line, his distribution may not be Ferdinand-esque, but lordy, the boy sure knows how to defend.

His dedication is clearly contagious because he demanded and was rewarded with similar performances from a central defender long dismissed as well past his best, a right-back viewed as average rather than spectacular and a left-back seen as a laughing stock up to just a few months ago. They were all brilliant.

Granted, the game may have been different and that defence may have been stretched further by a fit Arjen Robben and Damien Duff. But you know what they say about 'ifs and buts'...a defence can only stop what's put in front of them and this Liverpool defence stopped this Chelsea attack. Again and again and again.

For all their second-half possession Chelsea were restricted to just a handful of clear-cut chances, with Jerzy Dudek only being called upon for one (brilliant) save. The Pole was given protection stronger and more impenetrable than he could ever have imagined. Chelsea huffed and puffed but they just could not blow their house down.

It made for an enthralling, nervous and brilliant spectacle for the neutrals among us, those of us who just wanted some entertainment and excitement at the end of a dull Premiership season. And by golly, did we ever get it?

To Chelsea, thanks for the entertainment and commiserations that you came up against such remarkable opposition. To Liverpool and Jamie Carragher, congratulations - have a well-earned rest.

Try as you might!!


Personally, i felt that they have already overachieved as a team in Europe and under achieve as a team in Englisg League. We will never stiff the League Trophy until we found some consistencies and a centre forward who can bang in 30 odd goals in a season, a defender who can stop playing like a clumsy defender from Pahang, muaahhahah...and a decent midfielder like err..Steven Gerrard.

Even if they can't beat Milan In Istanbul, Turkey in the final...i can simply sit back and remember that we have beaten a couple of champions on route to the final..Juventus and Chelsea. Thanks for the sweet smile i will be wearing until next saturday where we will be beaten to pulp by Arsenal!!!

A Phone call..

Lighting your thoughts

I received a call today from a long lost friend.

At least, i still consider him friend when we last met.

His sense of loyalty to one of our previous boss divided us. I mean, aku pun respect org tuh tapi tak perlu aku beriya-iya sangat dengar dan patuh cakap dia. In my life, i have met people who looks like an angel first but later turn to BealZibub (Devil) in a click of of a finger.

Sebab utama jadi begini? Mampu berubah sekejap mata??

1. Duit
2. Duit
3. Duit
4. Perempuan
5. Duit untuk sara perempuan tersebut
6. Duit utk ikat perempuan tersebut
7. Duit untuk sex with the perempuan

( Ini pemikiran lelaki st8...if you're otherwise, i cannot comprehend..heh..heh)

Kenapa duit boleh mengubah personaliti seseorang?

Jika aku tahu, mungkin berpuluh ribu buku sudah mampu aku jual, masakan buku seperti " Anda juga seorang Jutawan" atau " Jutawan dalam diri anda" begitu laris di jual.

Yang aku pelik, jika penulis buku seperti ini mampu jadi jutawan, takkanlah dia nak bagitau rahsia kekayaan dia? Jual buku la pulak, kalau betul nak tolong org, bagi la free aje...ataupun setakat cover cost printing sahaja, nie harga buku pun mencecah RM 60.

Boleh reload Maxis Hotlink dgn lama tuh.

Apa yang aku melalut nie?

Tal ada apa...cuma lama jangka hayat aku, terlalu ramai yang aku jumpa hanyut dgn duit dan berubah menjadi org yang aku tak kenali?

Aku juga mahu duit, aku juga mahu kaya, aku juga mahu rumah besar yang kena dibeli dgn duit, kereta besar yang kena beli dgn duit..pendek kata, semuanya duit!

Mungkin ada yang berkata " Ada yang tak mampu di beli dgn duit, like love"

I would probably say " Bullshit!"...with money, i would get some nice lady to love me in an instance because money path the way to her undergarments. Kalau tak betul2 beli pun, at least ease the way ler....

It could be your room mates, sama2 makan maggie dulu, ikat perut nak bayar duit moto...tapi sejak dia kerja dan berjawatan besar sama ada Bank Negara ker, TNB ker, Telekom Ker, nak makan maflai dgn lu pun dia tak nak, mungkin terpaksa ke Dome di KLCC or Starbucks di Bukit Bintang utk menghirup kopi RM 8 secawan.

Entah..pada aku, duit tak merubah aku sebenarnya...penat mencarinya namun mudah juga dia pergi sekelip mata.

Lebih2 lagi Melayu yang berniaga.

Minta maaf , jika tersinggung tapi ini lumrah.

Terlalu tergelojoh mengaut keuntungan hingga lupa sebenarnya dia mengusir pelanggannya sendiri.

Mula2 nasik lemaknya 50 sen siap dgn telurnya...laris dan keuntungan bertambah, maka dlm kesedapannya nak untung, dgn mudah naikkan RM 1.00 tanpa sebarang penambahan lauk.

Ini biasa dilakukan...bukan setakat nasik lemak, berniaga komputer pun begitu, perabot pun begitu, apa ajelah....bangsa kita gelojoh.

Aku teringat buku yang aku baca mengenai Mr. Kaufmann. He is the founder of Kaufmann Institute di US.

He is so successful as a salesman that his commission is greater than the President of the company salary. The next year, he makes more than the President of the Company again...so the President decided to cut his commission.

Fed up, he started his own company, Marion Lab. He is so successful ...that he bought up 3/4 of Baltimore real estate and one of the richest man in US.

His method of business is simple,...even if he can make 35% margin with the bargaining power he have now...he still stick to the normal 15% margin to everyone.

Why? Because it is better to make 1oo bucks today, tomorrow, the day after and so on then making 1000 bucks but the buck stops there!

Ini mentaliti yang kita , especially Bangsa Melayu tak ada...agama Islam, ada yang niaga berserban lagi tapi sama gak cekik darah...suka untung cepat.

Entah pada aku, people buy not because of the company you are representing but people buy because of you! They are comfortable with you and they proceed...they could have gone and search for better pricing.

That's for me are purely on integrity and character of a person.

Agaknya la kan....

Life after...

Been watching movies lately. I mean a lot...

The list watched this week are:

1) Lemony Snickets "Series of Unfortunate Events"

2) Sembilu 2005

3) GK3

4) Sepet

5) The Forgotten

6) Buai Laju-Laju

7) Potret Mistik

I know some of you might say ...alawei banyaknya masa dia, mind you i am unemployed till 1st May 2005, so i deserve my free time between my videogames, book and family time.

Banyak cerita melayu tapi malangnya banyak juga tak berkualiti. Minta maaf cerita Razak Mohaideen( I don't think he actually deserve the Associate Prof.) semuanya hampas...semuanya artis baru, plot cerita amat lemah, dan rata2nya ending semuanya menghampakan, my brain hardly work because it is pure entertainment.

Yasmin Ahmad "Sepet" was commandable for a first timer, and my brain had to recalibrate a bit. It was honest and brave for a first time director..racial integration is a sensitive issue and yasmin come up best by slithering the issue without scraching any pride. Funny no indian in the movie though?!!

Sembilu 2005 was also an attempt by Datuk Yusof Haslam to tackle interracial love. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said about this movie in the same platform like "Sepet". Too many characters were lost in the midst of the tug of war for the love of Salina. It was way too long for a movie about unrequited love, we all know about Sembilu adalah cerita cinta tak kesampaian...dulu Awie frust, sekarang Vince la pulak. Tapi honestly ler Vince need a lot of acting lesson, i mean a lot!!!

Lemony Snickets ...what can i say, plot were okay but may be too taxing for pure fun seekeers. This sub winding plot and the wickedness of Count Olaf is just a few winning points in the movie. Jim Carrey is excellent in the multiple role he undertook...man, this guy is good. Highly recommended.

The Forgotten....was X-Files in a big screen. Cant say much since the producer were the same producer for X-Files session 4-5. It was supposed to be a movie of a grieving mother who lost hr child but later thye plot unravel in such a way that a visit to the toilet is too much to undertake. Okay for light thrill but no way as riveting as an actual X-Files franchises itself.

Yang lain2 cuma passing by aje....wasnt really memorable ler...more like terrible ada ler.

tapi jika lu oranga ada movie yang baik utk saya tengok...bagitau ler.

Jangan la bagi cerita queer lak.Muahahhahahhaha

The way ahead

Time has been very kind to me.

Along the way, i have met some good friends, bad people and a middle category kind of a person, not entirely nice not that evil either.

For all of that, i am blessed for i had enriched my life ....be it as a better person or just a human b eing.

Which brings me to the things i need to do for my class, part of the course requires me to do a lot of self-assessment, i mean a lot.

So off i go to the internet and suprisingly there are tonnes of websites offering this service to evaluating the person you really are.

GO AHEAD!! Try it...go to google and type "Self assessment"

I know some of you are eating this stuff like crazy man...

But to answer this question, you must be honest, which also brings me to another dilemma, how honest can you be in answering these sort of questions?

All of us like to hear what is best about us, not criticisms!? I am not the kind of person who takes criticims openly...i mean kalau you wallop me in front of 12 people, you are bound to get kill in a short time of period by me, muahahhahah...

Seriously, if you criticise me slowly and in close environment, i am ok ....may be it just me.

Okay, so how many of you actually answers these questions honestly? Assuming you are tackling a questionaire about " Are you a good lover?"

Most of us would probably answer it in the most romantic way possible....i admit, i am not a romantic person....a dinner with a candle light is not my idea of romantic.....i am more of an action orientated man.

I dont know la kan...half os us will answer it in order to get the answer we wanted to hear. Were afraid that whatever verdict we get may not be our liking.

Then again, if we cant take other people evaluation of us , who else can you get it from?

There are things that you know about yourself but more apparent to somebody else,(refer to Johari Window).

In that sense, you might not be the best person to evaluate yourselves because the way we perceive ourselves is not the same as others look at us.

Now, that need a lot of pondering eh??

Final Day

It went so fast.

The day ended more like a flash, a memory that lingers even years after it actually happen.

I felt that i needed to do some more but then again, at the same time...i don't want it anymore.

That was the feeling i felt yesterday...as i walked out of the office for the last time.

I am officially unemployed for 7 days...and self-employed for hopefully, many prosperous years to come.

The mixture of feelings.

There is hope.....fear....anxiety.....and a bit of un-certainty.

There is anxiety of what lies next in my life.....i havent been this far out without an actual parameter that i can easily define or determine.

There is hope that i can actually do better and actually perform to the best of my ability for my own sake.

There is uncertainty of what out there that can be rewarding or totally destroyed the life i have built.

The worst part is the fear.

The fear of failling. Failures is a big word for me...i have been unable to accept failures or disappointment all my life. It is somehow embedded in my mind that failure is un-desirable.

I am unable to accept the slightest disappointment even the smallest that you can think of. Things that i can do but some people are unable or felt that it is to taxing for them, i will not take it easily ler. My kids can testify for that.

It is not i have been so successful in life either that i am thinking or behaving the way that i am. I have failed many times..be it exam, in my work, in my relationships but i hardly take it to heart.
Somehow i had this unshakeable belief that things will sort themselve out...either by time or by other coinciding factors.

Failure is something i need to learn and accept from now on. I need to learn that for my own sake and for my family sake.

I know i am not alone on this either...we are all brought up in a society that shunned failures or disappointment. Take your parents for example, they wanted you to get As in what ever exam you take in your life. Even the slightest mishaps like B+ or A- will be shouted at or herdik.

Words like " Mana mak nak letak muka mak hah?" will be like a rhyme to those familiar with this.

Your football coach will shout and shout for you to continue running....even though you got no legs anymore.

There is no such words such as " You tried your best, son....perhaps we will overcome this weakness today and come out stronger next year."

or even " Learn today kid what failures is all about, but learn also that you don't have to like it either"

Mungkin ada....but not much ler.

Saya faham sebagai parents kita mahukan yg terbaik utk anak2 kita but as adults, do we know better? Is it fair to place our expectations on them?

Ada pro and cons ler....

For know, let me savour what free time i had before i hardly notice what time is it anymore.